It sucks. I hurt constantly. I'm dizzy all the time it seems. I can't stand more than a few minutes without feeling the need to sit. I'm nearly 200 lbs for the first time in my life (which is scary enough). Still no license, and we're borrowing someone else's car. So I'm stuck at school all day when he has to go to work while I'm in class. He got called in early today, or else I'd be at home, laying down, possibly sleeping, right now. But nope. He got called in an hour early. Yay for extra hours. Boo for being by myself at school. And no one really knows I'm by myself. Yes, all the people who work in here know my name, and there's a couple of people in here that I've talked too before, but I don't know them well enough to just go up to them and ask for a ride.

Oh. I should probably mention that I'm approximately 3 weeks and 5 days away from having a baby. And still going to classes/work. And physical therapy twice a week, doctor every other week (though next week might start the once a week visits). Have two concerts next week, one I didn't know about until recently. Also have test and project due that week.

I just want to go lay down and get away from all the sorority (sorry, "social club") girls in here. They're loud. My head hurts enough. So do my legs, my hips, my back, my abdominal area....I'm actually feeling contractions for the first time, too, though they're not regular so I doubt baby's coming today. It's still scary enough to think about, since I don't have a way home, let alone to the freaking hospital. And with my luck, they'd get me there only to send me home anyway, to wait it out until it gets further. Argh. And although I've got a few friends here in Abilene, I don't have phone numbers for any of them, and they're probably too busy to help anyway.

People tell me to be positive. But it doesn't work that way. Whatever I see around me, that's usually how I feel. If I only see negative around me, I'm negative. If I only see positive, I'm positive. I just see so much more negative than positive. Plus it's hard to be positive when you hurt constantly. Tylenol doesn't help, it usually doesn't anymore. Can't take anything else. Can't do anything else. Just wait until he gets off work. Or until I see someone who has a car and is nice and would give me a lift. I'm not gonna hold my breath on that one.



/end rant

Everything's stil wonky, eh? Oh, well. At least I found a better way around it than post and edit. ^^

So, things are going along. Kinda boring, really. I just sit here in the apartment all day, waiting to hear from several busnesses on if they want to hire me or not. Here's hoping that bit of basic helps me. ^^;

Classes started a week ago tomorrow. Nothing really exciting there, though my acting class already seems a bit challenging. lol. My birthday was Thursday (yay I'm 21!). Um...nothing else really exciting happening. Not that anything exciting ever happens anyway. -_-;

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So my LJ is still do wierd things on the input field thingie. Oh, well.

Anyways. I found out you can import things from here on LJ to Facebook, so a bit of this is gonna fly over there, though I think it'll only transfer the public entries. But that's okay with me.

I'm dying of boredom here in this place. It's driving me bonkers. lol. I mean, for a while it was great, I kept myself busy in here in my room, organizing stuffs and listening to music, drowning out the world. But now...now it's not really blocking anything out. -_-; I'm doing laundry, cooking, cleaning, anything I can think of, but I'm still miserable. -_-; Oh, well. Once Tuesday gets here, I should be okay. I'll be seeing other people then, and I won't be as cookoo.


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1. Being Gay Is Not Natural

Which is exactly why they appear in every species on the planet except the ones that are hermaphrodites, single cell, or have the power to change gender at will.

2. Gay Marriage Will Encourage People To Be Gay

In the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

3. Legalizing Gay Marriage Will Open The Door To All Kinds Of Crazy Behavior

People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract. Lamps are next.

4. Straight Marriage Has Been Around A Long Time And Hasn't Changed At All

Hence why women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5. Straight Marriage Will Be Less Meaningful If Gay Marriage Were Allowed

And we can't let the sanctity of Britney Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage be destroyed.

6. Straight Marriages Are Valid Because They Produce Children

So therefore, gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our population isn't out of control, our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.

7. Obviously Gay Parents Will Raise Gay Children

Since, of course, straight parents only raise straight children.

8. Gay Marriage Is Not Supported By Religion

In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.

9. Children Can Never Succeed Without A Male And A Female Role Model

Which is exactly why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10. Gay Marriage Will Change The Foundation Of Society; We Could Never Adapt To New Social Norms

Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.

Repost This If You Think LOVE Makes A Marriage!

Right now things aren't looking so hot. My chest's hurting for no apparent reason, my mouth hurts because I've got bad teeth and my gums got pretty scraped the other day, my knee hurts because...well, because it's my knee and it loves giving me grief, and I've got the cramps from hell. It's been a little over a week since we submitted our application for the apartment and no word as of yet on that. And as for financial aid, I'm still waiting to be told what I'm eligible for, because I was randomly picked for verification on my freaking FASFA. So, yes. Not fun.

I've been having some fun up until all this hit. But since I still don't have a job, and no way to make money at this time, I'm kinda annoyed. I don't even have anything vollunteer like I could do just to keep busy! >.< My journal entry area is still wierd, too, and I still have no idea why the hell it does that, either.

So...I'm excited. Someone who's stuff I've read on the Internet is going to have her first book officially published Monday/Jan 15th (ebook Mon, print book Jan), and I can't wait to read it. ^^ Also, I've got three books that are supposed to be coming in the mail tomorrow that I've been waiting on to read for some time, and I've got at least 5 other books just sitting around the house here waiting for me to read them. It's just with everything else going on, I haven't sat down to start/finish them.

That's why I like webcomics. Especially the ones that have been around a while. There's a lot there, but you hardly read each day, and the story keeps going. ^^

Anyways. Gonna shut up now. ^^;

Gak and copy these questions to your own LJ.
Embolden the things you have done.
Italicizethe things you wish you had done or would like to do.



1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band.
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you're not ill
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo's David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted by your mother.
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkelling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theatre Tons of times
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class (Tee hee, gotta love being obsessed. ^^; *is a purple belt in Tae Kwan Do, and has learned bits and pieces from a few other styles of the martial arts*
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favourite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Read the entire Bible
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox
89. Saved someone's life
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous (Sherrilyn Kenyon. :D)
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a mobile phone
99. Been stung by a bee
100. Read an entire book in one day (Do it all the time.)

01. Name a movie that you have seen more than 10 times. CAMP
02. Name a movie that you've seen multiple times in a theatre? Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
03. Name an actor that would make you more inclined to see a movie. Um...I dunno.
04. Name an actor that would make you less likely to see a movie. Tom Hanks
05. Name a movie that you can quote from. CAMP
06. Name a movie musical that you know all the lyrics to all the songs. RENT
07. Name a movie that you have been known to sing along with. Um, same as above.
08. Name a movie that you would recommend everyone see. Sweeny Todd, just once.
09. Name a movie that you own. Y Tu Mama Tambien
10. Name an actor that launched his/her entertainment career in another medium but who has surprised you with his/her acting chops. None that I can think of.
11. Have you ever seen a movie in a drive-in? Nope.
12. Ever made out in a movie? Negative.
13. Name a movie that you keep meaning to see but just haven't gotten around to it yet? Iron Man
14. Ever walked out of a movie? No.
15. Name a movie that made you cry in the theater. Twilight, oddly enough.
16. Popcorn? Naturaly.
17. How often do you go to the movies (as opposed to renting them or watching them at home)? Probably a couple of times a year.
18. What's the last movie you saw in the theater? Twilight
19. What is your favorite/preferred genre of movie? Anime/Musical/Fantasy (all three).
20. What was the first movie you remember seeing in the theater? Star Wars Episode One
21. What movie do you wish you had never seen? Y Tu Mama Tambien
22. What is the weirdest movie you enjoyed? The Matrix
23. What is the scariest movie you've ever seen? One of th eChuckie movies. I hate them.
24. What is the funniest movie you've ever seen? I can't really decide on that one. I'll get back to ya, though. :D

Um...what the hey? For whatever reason, I can't see anything I'm typing. Oh, well.

Anyways, obviously, I didn't make it through Basic Training, since I'm back here. They kept me an extra month, to see if I could pass, but alas, I didn't. I was off on my run by a minute and a half. It wasn't fun. I passed everything else with flying colors, but I guess it just wasn't meant to be at this time. But, hey, it all worked out in the end, right? ^^;

So, anyway. I registered for classes today. My schedule is gonna be so easy this semester. I've only got 13 hours, but hey, that's okay with me. ^^.

Took care of phone stuff and loan repayment stuffs. >.> I'm essentially all set for Basic. Other than physically. Which, in and of itself is the scary thing. :o

I'm so gonna get smooshed. XD